When I didn’t know how to forgive myself, I definitely suffered. I also carried around a lot of guilt and anger which just made me feel down and hopeless.
As you can gather, I use to be ridiculously hard on myself. If I didn’t do something perfectly, I would beat myself up, so to speak.
The most recent example of this is as a mother. Especially in the early days, I was absolutely horrified that I wasn’t the perfect mum. If I shouted at the kids, I would then hang my head in shame. If the house wasn’t tidy, I would be embarrassed. For goodness sake, I even felt guilty when my babies did not get enough sleep (according to the parenting manuals).
This wasn’t much fun for me, or my children. So what did I do about it? I started seeing a kinesiologist. She said I had to be kinder to myself. I said, “I don’t know how.”
So I had to relearn how to be kind to myself, how to forgive myself and how to love myself.
Thankfully for my whole family, I did learn how to forgive myself for not being the perfect mum. Nowadays, if I shout in frustration at the kids, I give myself a break. I understand that nobody on earth is perfect. Most mums do shout, at least the ones I know do.
And through being able to forgive myself I have found freedom and peace. By not needing to be perfect, I was able to take part in the recent Performance on the Porch concert. As you can see from the video, my trumpet playing is a little rough. But that’s okay. I’m using it as a example to my kids and anyone else listening, that it’s more important to have a go or make someone smile than win awards.
If you would like to learn ways of being able to forgive yourself you may be interested in attending my free Freedom through Forgiveness webinar I’m holding on Tuesday the 15th of September.
On Monday the 5th of October, I am starting a 40 Day Free and Fearless Forgiveness Journey. You can click here for more details. https://www.canva.com/design/DAEELBiolsQ/W51aWrHo8BiZIHZgflTXEw/view?utm_content=DAEELBiolsQ&utm_campaign=designshare&utm_medium=link&utm_source=sharebutton
With kindness and care, Anna xxx